Nobody understands me

Nobody in this world understands me…nobody sees me… including my family. the only person who understands me have already went to heaven long time ago. how i wish she is stil with me. to c me grow up and know the reasons to everything tat i’ve done. how i wish that i never grow up n time will always stop at 12 years ago…..nobody sees what i have done…. beside the person understands me and my sec sch teachers understands me and they give me the chance to shine and i never disappoint them…

after leave the sch as time pass i feel tat only these people understands me and sees me. life really sux to hell…i promise myself to be sucessful in life in future to let tis people know that who am i…. LIFE REALLY SUX TO HELL!!!!!!

feeling lost…..

suddenly i feel lost… Dun know which way to go….suddenly like so many choices for me to choose… cos recently someone ask me to join their badmitnon team which i might have a chance to success but then due to somethings happen i dun know to choose to go for it or not…. and now i brought my SLR camera, i dun know should i jus do a gd portfolio n look for a photography job or jus continue to study n get a Os level cert which i am studying half way…..my dream to play badminton for my whole life n took part in many competitions but then now…. or to be a photographer n jus taking photos n play with cameras…..is like everything come so sudden i dun know which way to go…. 

totally lost in directions…. 

miss u guys…

woosh…. suddenly miss those days shooting together. miss tat kind of feelings, like rushing for the date line, looking for props, talants n stuffs like tat. writing script, planning all this. then doing our own photoshoot, having fun. really miss those extreamly tiring, fun, stress, worried, all kind of feelings n the bonding with u poeple. how i wish we can do it again together, have our own team members n do lots of shooting together… but btw i think i will be getting my SLR camera soon haha. i have already got my tripod yeah…. hope we can go out for a day shoot :d  miss my sch days…. 

wosh…..now very lazy update myself liao. Sry for those who always c my blog. now always feel very tired, like no matter how much i sleep stil the same. now working life very tired very sain. now everyday is working, studying no slacking cos taking Os. somehow i feel tat i got alot of things i wanna do but then stil not done yet. things like:

1. havent take driving licence
2. havent get a Os lvl cert/diploma
3. havent find a coach so tat i can continue to play badminton
4. havent buy my SLR camera

 I think tat’s all i wanna do for the time being…..

Yesterday when i going to work, i saw a accident donwstairs my house. witness it n infront of me some more. when i saw the accident, i feel so shock. the motorist become superman. until now my heart stil not clam yet… tis year saw alot of accidents so sad….. each accidents i saw got alot of different feelings… 

may god bless all u people out there 🙂

sign off……

feeling tired n confuse…..

now i am thinking of whething should i do privte diploma or O levels…haiz.. my firends adivse me to take O levels first then go take diploma… but then i found a sports cos in diploma  but then is dam super ex and i scare i cannot handle the english haiz….. i think i should take O levels first…but i am stil thinking about it ba.. hope god will guide me throught ba…

 

sign off….

wat to do????

yesterday when to watch avatar in 3D. is dam nice the movie is 2h45mins… very long hor haha. the part where in the jungle really feel tat i inside also so nice sia. if got time i think i will go watch 2D de then c how is it haha.  now waiting for another movie to come out hehe.

haiz…..i think my leg got something wrong since tat time morning i wake up n my leg cannot feel anything n i fall. since tat day i somehow feel that my leg something wrong . sometime i feel tat my leg have different feelings….haiz very long never play badminton, my chest wont pain so  often le then now my leg somehow like got something wrong….. i think i have to c doctor….

tis days feeling extremly tired haiz but anyway wish u people a merry merry christmas and a happy new year 🙂

tired….

tis few day my aunt when to china then i have to “in-charge ” of the stall…everyday do paper work sain n boring…but stil i learn new things…. my aunt will come back on monday liao….but these days do paper work i also not sure got miss out anything anot haha…but to me working in 7-11 is a easy job haha..

last week when to watch new moon, finally i watch it le yeah 🙂 quite nice i love the music. now waiting for jay chou movie come out…not the show he acted but another show which he directed.  jan the movie then out…

back to my short film haiz sain…very lazy to do but then luckly the sponsor i found having mediacrop projects haha so he wont be free for quite sometime haha lucky me… but stil hope i wont be lazy to do…now everyday after work come home very lazy to do things… now i wan to get a SLR camera zzzzzz…..

gd bye mucks 🙂

wooosh……….

today went to watch paranormal activity… the show stil ok la but then too much talking, the view make me a little uncomfortable haiz….actually wanted to watch jenifer’s body de but then only midnite. now waiting for new moon to come out. i wan watch!!!!! i think now got quite a few movies i wanted to watch. hope got time to watch.  tis week quite tiring, working n working. now abit sian of working liao. until now stil cannot find a job tat i wanted. but jus hope tat got a chance to shoot my short film ba…..

now my life starts to get busy again…

now me and jiahao continue with our M8 story… n we mange to get lobang but they wanted to c the script, synopsis and powerpoint first they decide whether they wanted to sponsor us anot….but really hope tis time will success . i really wan to shoot the film… so now will be busy again cos i’m also working rite now so ya….feeling tired haiz wat to do….must ping ping ping 🙂

back after about 2 years

back after a long long time. during last year keep on rushing for my m8 n studio assigment all stuffs. it was a stress n extremly tired year. but in the end my effort had pay off. my grade did disappoint me as i get wat i should get but stil not tat gd at least my gpa increase. so stil quite ok.

After finish ite i really dun know wat i wan in life. esp when i cant get into poly. but  all tis while i have been working at my aunt 7-11. but as for now i know wat i wan. i am thinking of jus keep on working there n when i have enough exprience i will intend to open a stall also…. as now is so hard to find a job. some more mostly need at least a diploma.

one day jiahao called me tel me tat he got lobang of shooting of my short film but then now i dun know how is it as he have not tel me anything as i am busy working. but then i think i will  cal him n ask about it n c how. so now i jus work n c how can i go about. but for now tis is my planning n mayb in furture it might change. so tis is wat i have been doing for the past 1 year plus.